Saturday, December 25, 2010

Love?

I really like this guy, and it seems he likes me. I tell him everything, and he basically understands me. A few months ago when I really liked him and he really liked me, I introduced my best friend to him.
That was a mistake.
The the guy I liked ended up liking my best friend and visversa. He told me one night, and I was so hurt. He and I never went out or anything but, it hurt alot. I guess what hurt the most was the fact that, she was my best friend and he was a guy I really like.
The next few weeks to come, he was constantly talk to me how much he liked her, and I was very jealous since I still liked him. And on msn we would go on 3 way chats, and they would be flirting, I usually then didn't talk to them for a while or just left. They ended up going out and breaking up a few days later because my best friend lost feelings for him. I then had to try and calm down my the guy I liked.
He moved away and I still talked to him over Facebook, Msn and Texts. As soon as he moved away my best friend started to like him again. He ended the friendship with her a few times and she would say "Why me and not you..?" and I would feel like saying back "Because I wasn't the one who broke his fucking heart". But, I didn't.
They became friends again. He confuses me, he now says that I am the right girl for him and he loves me. But after he would say and oh yeah **** is coming up when she leaves school because she likes me. And I would just get jealous. Its as if he is purposely trying to hurt me. And I can't say he is hurting me or he will get annoyed.
I kind of realise now, yes, he can be my friend, but nothing more. And I can't tell him that I love him, when I really don't, other wise I will be just as bad as him. But I no that, he will probably hate it if I ever get a boyfriend and he would hate my boyfriend.

Sometimes he pisses me off. 

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